Changing of the Major 2nd time is the charm!

So, today I officially changed my major. Exciting! Woot woot. I'm now a Middle Childhood Education Major, with concentrations in Math and Science. I also plan to get my generalist endorsement and my reading endorsement. I've decided to change my major for a variety of reasons.
1. I suck at playing solos on my euphonium. And everyone and their mom decides to tell me this. Including some people that I really was surprised to hear it from..... :(
2. I've been praying a lot about it and it seems like God is pointing me in this direction (this should probably be #1!)
3. I'm tired of busting my butt for a music degree, and still fall short of exemplary. Freakin Music History.

So a lot of people have told me I'm stupid for changing my major. Yes, I know I'm going to be at MVNU for a while longer. I'm looking to graduate in FA2012. Yes, I know it's a huge jump from music to math and science. Yes, I know I have a lot of classes to take. But you know what? I want to do what will make me happy, not what will get my out of school sooner. Yea, I want to be done soon. But I don't want to e told how much I suck at what I want to do in life. That just makes me miserable. I guess what bothered me the most about when people said I suck was that they constantly told me, practice more practice more practice more. I DID! I can play the piece just fine and dandy when it's only me in the room. But when other people come in the room I tense up and suck at life. I hate hate hate hate hate HATE solos. Like a tiny one in band is ok, but not a 5-8 minute long one with only the piano and I. No, and honestly, when would that be a reality for a Music Educator? Most of the music teachers I know from high school haven't played a solo in decades. But that's just me. Juries don't bother most people I guess, I just hate them.

Well that's enough ranting for now. I just hope people get off my back about my decisions about MY life.

Michael

Bored

This weekend is excessively boring. I should really be doing homework, but I'm not really motivated. Sleep/watching tv is more entertaining. But in reality I should be writing 4 article reviews, writing 5 lesson plans, doing a hardcore history assignment, and doing 2 pages of theory homework :/ Oh well. Lol. Suppose I'll go do something :)

Michael

Confused

Do you ever get in those ruts where nothing makes sense to you? Like, nothing at all, not what you plan to do in life, not what the rules are, and especially not why it's so hard to become a music teacher!
I love music. A lot. But it seems like you have to jump through 70 hoops at once to become a teacher. I learn things in some classes I know I'll never use. Some things just don't apply for a Band Room. And it seems like the things I really feel I need to learn, I'm not getting. I have no idea how to run after school programs, like Marching Band and Jazz Band, and Pep Band, but is there a course to take to learn that stuff? Nope. Just like there's nothing for Show choir for the vocal majors.
Sometimes it feels like I'm trapped in a major that I shouldn't be in. When I decided to be a music major, it was assumed that I was instrumental. In all actuality, I probably would have chosen vocal, had I known I had a choice in the matter. I'm definately not great at singing or at playing my euphonium, but it seems like I've always had more fun singing, and singing solos, than playing solos. I have such a hard time keeping time when there's no one conducting me. And in all reality, how many Band Teachers need to be able to play solos? I can understand the need to be able to play well in a group, which I'm good at, but solos are just a pain, and I'm sure all music majors agree with me there. If I wanted to play solos all the time, I would be a music performance major! Lol. Oh well. Complaining gets you no where.